A. is A.

having my free time is something that i am appreciating more each day. Working a second job that is struggling to keep its doors open has taught me a lot of things.  

1. I am much of a happier healthier person when i free time for myself.

2. Money cannot buy happiness.

3. It is not wise to start a business without any knowledge or experience within the industry.

4.  You owe nobody nothing.

5. Trust your gut.

6. Keep messy negative ass people the hell away from you. Always.

I am happy to return back to the old times when i could just wake up and go to the gym and relax and enjoy my environment around me. To be able to have the opportunity to sleep in and spend some time in solitude.

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I took a two hour nap after going to Uncle Julio’s with my roommate and his mother who is back into town for a tennis tournament.  J. came by earlier in the morning to spend some time and i cooked her breakfast. I dont mind her coming over but i dont want her to get comfortable. 

People been coming at me left and right trying to get me to do what they want me to do. They keep getting their feelings hurt. I rather think it funny to see someone waste their time and their effort to try to control me by quilt tripping me into believing that a decision that i made is so selfish. Like how dare you Angela refuse to respond the way i want you to respond.

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I spoke with a friend about being hesitant in accepting one’s reality.  Sometimes,  when i wake up and realize that I’m not where I was a month ago and that my reality has altered into something good and i wonder sometimes whether i deserve to be where i am at the present moment. 

and then i read this on my horoscope the day that i had this on my spirit..

“Whether you realize it or not, today you have reached a milestone on a journey toward one of your goals. You probably feel like you have a little farther to go, and you do — but for now you need to ignore the nagging voice in your head that is telling you to keep going. Today, you deserve a break. Try to think of your situation as being ‘good enough for now.’ You can keep going tomorrow or the next day. But right now, slow down and recharge your batteries.”

and then my good friend sent me this quote from James Baldwin…

““Your crown has bought and paid for. All you have to do is put it on your head.” 

And im like, wow!

He said something to the extent of if you where not meant to be where you are then you would not be where you are. In pondering on that,  i sit back and stop worrying or being afraid of where i am and start appreciating and accepting where I am and learning how to enjoy every moment of it.

I am relaxing and taking time for me and if anyone has a problem about how i go about doing so… well, 

shrugs.